Opening Up...

LAST POST!!!

2005-11-10T05:59:09Z

Hey everyone...this is officially my last post. Thanks for listening and paying attention to me...Good Luck...

Joe

afireinside827 @ 2005-10-19T00:01:00

2005-10-19T04:05:48Z

I've been having a lot on my mind lately. Between school, and girls who lead me on, I've gone back to thinking about my papa and stuff. and i lost a friend the other day. And I really cared about him...dammit...why I ask...why...have fun with life kids

so.............

2005-10-08T22:11:58Z

so yeah...college...not the best place in the world...I might leave, there's a few things NAGGING me that I don't feel like dealing with. If you don't belong, why force urself to be accepted? All I wanted was distance...fucking admissions office...they could've rejected me...

NEW COHEED SONG!!!

2005-07-13T11:47:24Z

THERE IS A NEW COHEED SONG OUT NOW!!! IT'S CALLED "WELCOME HOME" AND IT'S AMAZING!!!

The Show

2005-07-10T12:42:05Z

FUCKING AMAZING!!!

Saosin was frigin unbelievable. There was a HUGE pit going and I was caught in the middle. I got headbutted in the nose and thought it was broken but it wasn't it's only bruised and I made a Myspace when I got home just so I could tell Saosin that they were so damn good and I didn't want them to stop playing so check that out people and we saw the lead guitarist Justin in Dunkin Dounuts and Alandria wanted to touch him and I wanted to ask for his napkin but we just gave him the nod instead you know...the nod like "hey man, i want to talk to you but I'm just not cool enough." Thats a run-on sentence. Newayz...I'l be at orientation till Tuesday so...

Peace out?

Update

2005-07-07T23:53:20Z

Let's see...I left Live journal for a while cause i was sick of people and the drama that unfloded from comments left. But i realize now that all that stupid shit will be forgotten in few days, so why why fret over stupid shit other people do?

So let's update from December...

Broken up
Attempted Suicide
Schools over
Stacey's back
Learned to swim (kinda)
Saosin show tomorrow (Exactly 24 hours...hell yeah niggas)
White water rafting soon
School in 2 months

Thats about it...peace out cool cats...

Hang your head low

2004-12-21T02:02:34Z

Die Christmas.
Die me.
Die Christmas.
Die me.
Die Christmas.
Die me.
Die Christmas.
Die me.
Die Christmas.
Die me.

Ugh...my songs are starting to come true...a wee bit scary, eh?

I hate myself.

"You can have my dead body for Christmas. When you open your gifts, I'll be there, hidden in a box that you think is one more of your selfish needs. It's me dead...

Good News: Wrote a new song about Kenshin. Did u give a fuck? NO!

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-12-08T17:50:00

2004-12-08T22:55:30Z

I hate people who jump on the band wagon.
I hate Track...I really do...
I hate posers....though I am one myself.
I hate loving people I hate.
I hate being away from her when i need her the most.
I hate the school.

I hate...

...myself...

But I really hate running!

Ebay rules.

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-11-21T08:27:00

2004-11-21T13:31:46Z

"I danced on the day I met you...

...but now I cry myself to sleep"

Just thought I'd share some of my famous song lines with you.

"Pick up the phone...I'm dialing the number to your heart. Wrong Number"

"Trudging through the snow to find a place you call home"

I care not to share more...please don't steal these to put in your own lame ass emo songs...just cheer up.

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-10-26T22:09:00

2004-10-27T02:21:39Z

that look i got sucked...

please don't hate me... I 'm just a poor little boy...who sucks..

home is where you make it...

where's my home?

music...such a great escape

nothing to say

that look sucked...those eyes, your whole look...everything about those 3 seconds just...oh man... i try to do good and make you happy...please don't hate me

Peace

ugh...

2004-10-22T03:19:13Z

I wish all trebuchets would disappear.

Fuck school, projects, oral presentations...

I just want a world without school right now, with only soccer and Annette. If life was lived on a soccer field, that would be awesome. Yeah...I know I suck and the goals I make aren't the greatest, but whatever. I leave a part of me on the field every time I play.

Fuck school...

Haloween Countdown...27 Days!!!!

2004-10-04T23:57:00Z

do you know what pisses the hell out of me? When you write out the song itself, but then don't have the lyrics to go with it. It's so frustrating. Cause I play it over and over, and nothing. Nothing comes to me.

Give me something to write about!!! Please!!!

Do you know what's awesome? Fucking up some Spanish kids in their own game. I got some "OLAY!!!!" and "OH SHIT!!! HE JUST DID THAT TO YOU!?!" from the other kids. I still get no respect.

Stock Market game is awesome...I wanna get my real stocks back, i made some money off of them, and then my parents sold them...

"JACK!!! only 364 days until the next Halloween!!!"

"Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about..." -TBS

Tell All Your Friends was better...

"You would Understand me better if you knew..."

Watching Walker Texas Ranger. That was the greatest show ever...

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-09-26T18:51:00

2004-09-26T22:52:19Z

"this is so messed up..."

why?

a simple question, yet can have many answers. add something after, such as:

why me?
or
why this?

add even more and you can get something such as:

why am I like this?
or
why do i keep doing this?
or
why am i so inconsiderate?

i want to answer these questions on myself, but I find that every time I do, i come up with nothing...

why do i come up with nothing?

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-09-12T00:37:00

2004-09-12T04:38:24Z

I'm sorry my dear...I won't ever do it again...

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-09-12T00:19:00

2004-09-12T04:29:34Z

I'm feeling much better...I had a pretty good day.

Took Annette to Boston to stall for the party, and because I just love spending time with her. Got the "Oh my Gah!" shirt. Gift for the hermano, and perfume for Dora. Cheesecake Factory always great...gotta love the whipped cream.

Go to the Romero household. I knew she knew. But what are you gonna do...me and Dora...Chismosos...partners in crime...

I tried to raise money for the laptop...whatever...some people felt that they didn't need to help. I'm sorry if I forgot to invite anyone...It's just with school starting and all this stuff going on, I just forgot about some people like Nadia, Melissa. Sorry girls. Won't happen again.

I just got home from the palace...craziness. I've never seen so many manlike women and hoochies in the same room. It's so disturbing. I'm sorry but I just don't go for that.

Marco...mi dispiage...I know you care, I'm just a jerk.

I'm tired...Thanks guys for helping me out and being there for Annette...Happy Birthday my dear...I love you.

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-09-08T23:29:00

2004-09-10T00:16:56Z

Happy Birthday Annette!!!

I love you!!!

I'm always dissapointed in myself

2004-09-09T03:20:15Z

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in short...I'm an ass hole.

I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up. I fucked up.

In short...I fucked up.

Don't want to talk about it.

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-09-01T23:08:00

2004-09-02T03:12:21Z

school...

Thats all I have to say about that

soccer...cool

Thats all I have to say about that

my death...can wait until I'm old and decrepid

Thats all I have to say about that

perella...sexy in the tie

Thats all I have to say about that

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-08-29T19:04:00

2004-08-29T23:25:36Z

if there were ever a time to die...i'd choose this very second.

I just want my parents to love me...

what did i do wrong?

why am i like this?

i didn't want my birthday to come.

I didn't want anything.

I wanted to sit in my room.

And do nothing.

I have so much anger right now.

I have so much sadness right now.

I have so much depression right now.

I have so much hatred for myself right now.

Suicide is selfish.

That's the wrong way out.

If there are any people out there that would like to kill me because of what I've done to them, besides my family members, please come forward and do it.

I hate my birthday.

With such a burning passion.

I hate it.

I dread it more than the first day of school.

I'm burning my licence tonight if anyone wants to help.

Putting the dishes away can be so lethal.

It's coming you guys.

I dunno what it is.

It's coming.

And I don't want it stopped.

And if this is a short story with a tragic ending,

don't visit my grave.

Every night since Tuesday, tears have soaked my pillow.

I guess another night won't hurt.

Hang in there Mr. Frye.

I'm praying for you.

I'm sorry to my friends who were at the party last night.

If I embarassed you with anything I did.

Or said.

I'm sorry to my family.

For "Ignoring" Them at the party last night and making them feel "unwanted and inferior."

I'm sorry to everyone.

Happy end of summer.

Good luck in school.

I hope you all go on to big and better things.

You all deserve it.

I don't deserve anything.

That's why i don't like to accept things from people or have people go out of their way for me.

Becuase everytime some one does something for me,

I get in trouble with my parents.

Always.

EVERY TIME.

I just want my family to love and accept me.

I guess I can't get what I want.

Ever.

I'm sorry that this is so long.

And that I'm wasting your time if you bothered to read this.

Don't worry though.

I'm holding everything in.

From now on.

I haven't eaten in 2 days.

My record is 4.

I'm going to break that record.

Watch me.

Don't interfere.

Just let it happen.

I don't want it stopped.

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-08-23T17:41:00

2004-08-23T21:41:47Z

never mind about the whole call me thing...

that's not my real number anyway...

Birthday Present

2004-08-23T21:38:03Z

After thinking about this for a while, all I've wanted as a material posession, since May 17th, but was never able to get one, was one of those Livestrong bracelets. I've called every sports store on the North Shore, and no one has them. It sucks because every time I went into a sports store to get one, they said that they were sold out. It pisses me off that people that want to help the Lance Armstrong Foundation (www.laf.org) can't because there are no more bracelets left. Yeah...I could just make a general donation on the site, but I want the bracelet because, it means something to me. I don't want it to be like everyone else who says "Oh, Bush and Kerry wear them, So should I..." My family has been plaged with cancer. Plagued. I can't speak for actual experience myself, but I held my papa's hand as he was dying. Imagine this:

You can't get up to go to the bathroom because the pain killers have numbed your body, plus you don't have the strnegth to get up because you can't open your mouth to eat food because you're too weak to eat. And when people try to feed you food, you just choke on the food because you're too weak. Your family members have to pick you up to carry you to the bathroom, but when you get there, your head just lolls to the side and you don't even have the strength to relieve yourself. And you think to yourself "My doctor said I was doing 90% better, and that I was on my way to being cancer free. What happened?" Your doctor lied. The pain is so intense now that you can still feel it even with the medicine. Your grandson kisses you on the cheek and says I love you. You want to say I love you back, but you don't have the strength to open your mouth. You don't even know it's your grandson. You don't even know someone's talking. You just want to smile and say "I love you, I'll see you when you get back from work."

I want a cure to be found.

I want it to be found soon.

I want a bracelet.

I want to donate to help the doctors find a cure so when I'm a grandfather, I won't have to go through this.

No one should have to go through this. Everyone should have a bracelet, and not just to be like everyone else, but because they want one to be part of the cause.

I want to help the cause.

I want a bracelet.

Peace

To do List

2004-08-11T14:28:40Z

*Get Licence
*Take Yearbook Pics
*Finsih School Work
*Mayer Concert
*Get Guitar fixed
*Call people
*Visit BC
*Visit BU(sellouts)
*Visit Colby
*Other Stuff...

Six Flags was Awesome

I can Successfully doggie paddle...Thank you Annette. You know I love you. That goes without saying. Now looking forward for Saturday. 6 (9) months. Damn...You know...I loved every minute of it.

I wrote a song about the cold war...

TAKING BACK SUNDAY CD Rules!!!

Peace

"a teenage bride with a baby inside...it's Califonication"

2004-08-09T00:41:49Z

Sad song...

Love you Annette...

Saw Stacey again...

White Castle Road Trip...

Guys planning prom...

Joe's Spazing from AP =D...

Joe Spazing anyway =}...

Guys Using Soap in the shower =0...(Thank you Ray Romano)

Shave your chest hair...

Hide and Go Seek in Cars around Revere...

Love you Annette...

Pirkey and Amanda...

Dunno...all stuff on my mind...you know...stuff I enjoy...still bored

Peace

Bored like Amy

2004-08-09T00:30:44Z

Put a * next to what you remember

Fresh Prince of Bel-Air*
G.I. Joe*
Are You Afraid Of The Dark?*
The Secret World Of Alex Mac*
Nightmare Before Christmas*
Welcome Freshman
Space Cases*
Roundhouse
The Muppet Show*
Muppet Babies*
Eureka's Castle
Salute Your Shorts*
Hey Dude*
Legends Of The Hidden Temple*
You Can't Do That On Television
Figure It Out*
G.U.T.S.*
What Would You Do?*
Double Dare*
Rocko's Modern Life*
Bevis and Butthead*
All That*
Ren And Stimpy*
Clarissa Explains It All*
The Torklesons*
Pete And Pete*
Stick Stickley*
Goodburger*
Angry Beavers*
Sponge Bob*
Hey Arnold*
AAH! Real Monsters*
Looney Toons*
Animaniacs*
Pinky And The Brain*
The Babysitters Club*
Underdog*
Kablam*
Gullah Gullah Island*
Richard Scarry*
Dumbo's circus
Ocean Girl
Mystery Files Of Shelby Woo*
Snick Snacks
Dunkaroos*
Snick*
Koala Yummies
Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego?*
Nick Magazine*
The Goonies*
Ernest Movies*
Adventures In Wonderland*
Homeward Bound*
The Adventures Of Yellow Dog
Milo And Otis*
Neverending Story*
Who Framed Roger Rabbit*
The Lion King*
Labyrinth
101 Dalmations*
The Secret Garden*
Pete's Dragon*
Hocus Pocus*
Land Before Time*
Dinosaurs*
Fern Gully*
Secret Of NIMH*
Gummi Bears*
Care Bears*
A Little Princess*
My Little Pony*
Black Beauty*
Rainbow Brite*
Lady Lovely Locks
Candyland*
Sorry!*
Trouble*
Don't Wake Daddy*
Mousetrap*
Jenga*
Don't Break The Ice*
Hungry Hungry Hippos*
Cooties*
Tinker Toys*
The castles that made tea sets*
Sky Dancers*
Polly Pocket*
Hypercolor t-shirts
Lite Brite*
Scrunchies*
Side Ponytails*
Stirrup Pants*
Jellies*
Saddle shoes*
Barbies*
Beanie babies*
Tamagotchies*
Yo-Yos*
Choose Your Own Adventure*
Pogs*
Goosebumps*
American Girl*
Island Of The Blue Dolphins
Saved By The Bell*
Step By Step*
TGIF on ABC*
Sabrina The Teenage Witch*
Boy Meets World*
Clueless*
Mork And Mindy*
Simpsons*
Flipper*
Eerie Indiana
Third Rock From The Sun*
Tracey Ullman Show
Ghost Writer*
Growing Pains*
Titanic*
Felix The Cat: The Movie*
Jonathan Taylor Thomas*
Home Improvement*
Tom And Huck*
My Brother And Me*
Kenan And Kel*
Hanson*
Inspector Gadget*
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles*
Power Rangers*
Hot Wheels*
Creepy Crawlers*
Easy Bake Oven*
Flower making kits*
Weinerville*
Wild And Crazy Kids*
Playdough*
Animorphs*
Rainbow Fish*
If You Give A Mouse A Cookie*
Bailey School Kids*
Wayside School*
Mrs. Piggle Wiggle
Boxcar Kids*
Ramona Quimby*
Amber Brown*
Roald Dahl*

Wild and Crazy Kids??? Any one remember that? or Guts? Or that Olmec Temple show? Or how about the Crocodile doctor game where you press the crocodile's teeth and if it bites you you lose?? I have no life...I remeber stuff like that...Polly pocket, Growing Pains, Full house, All in the Family...tell me more!!!_____________________________________

Home alone watching the kids...eh...I hate school work. F-ing Barille...Stupid Tess of the D'ubervilles...the last ten pages were awesome then everything else sucked. NOthing really till the end of summer...Six Flags, Anniversary, John Mayer, LICENSE, gig at friends birthday, yeah...pretty much the important stuff...no my birthday isn't all that important to me...

Protect Eachother...Cause I don't know what you guys are doing, nor do I care as long as drugs and sex aren't in abundance...unless I'm there too...but yeah...whatever...

Night All

Peace

afireinside827 @ 2004-07-25T08:30:00

2004-07-25T12:40:01Z

i'm leaving today...i gotta get out of here. I gotta get out of my house, correction. And I want to go to bed. I'm gonna miss you guys...I mean...you're leaving me with Burke. Why can't you leave me with Annette? "Just playin" I was just at church. And all I could think about was Annette. I dunno. Well I do, I just don't want to say.

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Marge Simpson

I gotta go, my brother is having fucking PMS behind me. Ass hole. He just ruined my whole day. he tells me he hates me and wishes I'd die. Fuck him. Oh well, I'll just go to camp and forget about him. I'll call some of you guys if I get the chance, like Annette, Kev, some other people. It's all good...eh no it's not. oh my god! David! Shut the hell up!!! This is where the base of my depression and saddness and pissed off ness and raging lunatic fits comes from: my house.

Peace